Thought I forgot aboutcha didn’t you? You’re so used to knowing every single dirty detail and way too much information that it must have been weird to not have me updating every second of every minute and every bathroom trip (you missed quite a few by the way).
To be honest, I really needed the break. I went in for surgery on July 3rd. This was part two of the three part excess skin removal process. This round was; extensive liposuction of my thighs with fat grafting to my breasts (basically the fat he took out of my legs, he put into my boobies) and my arm lift. I decided that these weeks of recovery would be exactly that…a full on balls to the wall recovery. I wanted them to not just be recovery for my body but for my mind and my sanity. Right after surgery I took one full week off of work to be home and recover, so I had TIME and so I decided to do things that I never really do or things that I’ve been wanting to do for a while:
I sat and watched a FULL season of Kitchen Nightmares. I am now head over heels in love with Chef Gordon Ramsay. I even had a dream that he let me cook for him and loved my food SO much that he proposed to me! (I said yes by the way). I also watched a whole season of Marriage Bootcamp: Bridezillas. I wasn’t going to mention that because that is 4 hours of my life I will forever regret giving up…but we all have SOME regrets in life.
My lift chair became my best friend in the world! The chair moved back and forth so I don’t have to use my muscles to get up so it literally moves forward until it dumps me out of the chair. It’s the best! I had my lift chair, my pain meds / muscle relaxers, my back scratcher and my 2 gallon water jug so I was a happy camper.
I took time to go outside and just walk around the neighborhood. I left the headphones at home and just listened to the noises of nature and our neighbors. I walked at a pace that I felt comfortable with and I didn’t care if it was at target heart rate or not. I listened to by body instead of my mind. Granted, I looked like the Michelin man when I walked and I’m pretty sure my neighbors were watching me trying to decide if they should just laugh at me or come ask me if I shit my pants. I walked every single day and made sure to get up every hour so I wasn’t confined to my beloved lift chair the whole day.
My surgery was on a Thursday and Saturday, July 5th was the Chicago Pro bodybuilding show in Tinley Park. There was NO way I was missing that! Two of my favorite bodybuilders were competing and there was no way in hell that a little surgery was going to keep me from seeing them!! Jeff Long was one, I have been following his career for a few years and I just love his positive attitude and determination. Even if he doesn’t place the way he hopes for at a show he keeps pushing himself even harder for the next one, I just admire that determination and perseverance so much. I also like his method of training. The other competitor is a women’s figure competitor, Wendy Fortino. I seriously have a woman crush on this beautiful creature! This woman is so absolutely stunning, her figure is basically perfect and her grace and poise on stage was beyond fascinating to watch! SO! I packed my cooler, took an extra dose of pain meds and Marc and I headed to the convention center to watch the show.
(Side note- I actually got to MEET Jeff Long while I was waddling to the bathroom! I thought my heart was going to fall out of my butt! yes, he is a great bodybuilder but he is so freakin’ man-gorgeous that I had to remind myself to speak so he didn’t think I was a mute! I was SO bummed I didn’t have my cell phone to take a picture with him! I ALWAYS have my phone in the bathroom for entertainment and the one time I forget…I have a photo op! DAMN IT)
I slept 8-9 hours per night and took naps during the day and cherished every single moment of those sleeps. During regular weeks, I work myself to absolute exhaustion between work, the gym, meetings, writing ect but I never make the time to get a full night of good quality sleep.
I didn’t stress about my diet or measurements or calories or portions. When I was hungry, I ate. When I had a craving for something, I indulged. I didn’t go on any crazy Godzilla like binges but I enjoyed and let myself do so without stress. I did a lot of cooking (with help from my grabber tool to reach the items I couldn’t reach with my arms haha). I tried different combinations of foods, made sure Johnny had a good dinner when he came home from work and made healthy treats for momma bear.
One night, I made a big Italian dinner for Johnny and Marc. I made home made gravy, caprese salad with arugala and home made vinaigrette, my own stuffed meatballs, two types of pasta, Vodka sauce for Johnny, garlic focaccia and gooey peanut butter brownies for dessert…my boys were happy. It probably wasn’t the BEST idea to watch Extreme Weightloss after that meal!
I TOOK TIME TO REFLECT
There are so many things in life to be grateful for. I know that it sounds so generic, but, I spend my days so consumed with myself, my life, my goals, my plans, my food, my workouts and my routine that I forget to really be grateful for the aspects of my life that allow me to have the things I have and live the way I do.
I also let my job consume me. Working for the hotel is an incredible opportunity. I like my job and I’m pretty good at it, but I know that I won’t be doing it forever. I burn out, I work extra hours, I stress out and let my job consume me when there are so many other things in my life that I need to use that focus on. I’m trying to build my own company, my own business and doing my own thing and my energy, stress and time needs to go there.
I SPENT TIME WITH FAMILY
There are times where I miss Vegas so much it brings me to tears. I left Vegas to be closer to my family while my dad is slowly on the decline and I wanted us to be together during this the rough time. My family is the most incredible family in the world. Even before my dad got sick we had an incredible bond where the four of us were our own team. The Remaly family could take on the world…and we did. We don’t have a huge extended family. My grandparents have all passed on, my half siblings are all of doing their own thing and can’t be bothered to check in on their own father and all other relatives live in other parts of the country. Because of this we have created our own family. Marc always teases me when I say “Oh that’s my aunt” and he always says, “is she REALLY your Aunt?” We have chosen people who we consider more than just friends…we consider them family.
One week before my surgery when my mom was in Israel, my dad had who severe seizures and these landed him on the hospice floor of a hospital. John and I were completely torn on whether we call our mother or not. We knew that if we called her she would leave Israel and she deserved this trip. She deserved to do something for HERSELF and I would never forgive myself if we called her to come home just to sit and watch Dad sleep.
Thank god everything was okay with my dad. I ended up pretty much living at the hospital. Johnny would spend days there because his boss told him not to even worry about work until dad was okay. It was during this time that our chosen family stood by us and made sure Johnny and I were okay. We were smothered with constant reminders of how much these people love us, how much they love dad and how much they love our family. There was chunk of time in there where we weren’t sure if our dad was going to survive. If we didn’t have the undying love of our chosen family and of each other I don’t know how Johnny and I would have remained strong enough to take care of mom once she came home.
When I talk about my family I don’t mean the family that I’m bound to by blood and at times an unfortunate turn of genetic events. When I talk about family I mean the people that we have CHOSEN to surround ourselves with. The family who support us and who surround us with unconditional love. This is the family that I love to spend time with.
I think it also goes without saying that my mom, John and I have grown stronger over these last few years. For people like Marc and Tom (mom’s boyfriend) people who are more like hostages, I can understand how it can be intimidating to come into a family like ours. I tell you what though…we have a insane amount of love, respect and courage. We may have an odd sense of humor and a sick and twisted way of dealing with devastation but there is an unparalleled bond between us.
Besides the above I had a chance to do more writing in the book. I now finally have an idea of when I want to finish and hopefully start publishing as well as have the book ready for the public. February 2015 is my goal date to have the book done and ready to be edited. March 2015 it will be available as an e-book and April 2015 It will be printed, tangible and ready to sell. This is when I will also do readings, a book tour and start the dirty work getting the book out there. I won’t give away ALL of my ideas but there are some fun things up my sleeve *stay tuned* mwahahaha.
As of today, I am back at work and doing SO much better now that I have changed my attitude towards work. Who knew that just sitting at a desk all day was so exhausting?! I have been doing a TON of writing (at LEAST 3-5 hours a day). I still cannot go to the gym, it has been KILLING me. I feel like I’m going through withdrawals. I literally have CRAVINGS to lift something heavy, feel the adrenaline in my blood from a good pump and have the sweat pouring down from hard work…soon though! I do make it a point to move as much as possible. I wear leg weights around the house when I can when I walk, I use resistance bands to do calf pumps and stretch my ankles.
I do have to continue wearing the incredibly sexy onesie (see picture below), I still have swollen feet like a 15 month pregnant lady, and I have a bit of trouble sleeping from my arms but all in all recovery of the body, mind and soul has been much needed. Even if you don’t have surgery… I think everyone should do a full-blown, balls to the wall rest and recovery of the mind and soul. Doctors orders.
PICTURE IS ONE WEEK BEFORE SURGERY on JUNE 28th, 2014
TODAY (AUG. 1, 2014) CHECK OUT THOSE BAKED HAM LOOKING ANKLES!
THE SEXY ONESIE- I HAVE TO WEAR THIS THING 23 HOURS A DAY!! THERE IS A PEE HOLE THOUGH!