Monthly Archives: June 2014

Uganda Be Kidding Me!

What is it about food that makes it so essential in our lives?

We socialize around it, we talk about it (while eating it in my family), we watch it on T.V, we eat it…lots of it and for some we make a career of it.  When down the road of the first cavepeople picking something up, putting it in their mouths and discovering the foodgasm that followed and where we are today did the obsession truly begin?  After meeting with my bariatric surgeon a few weeks ago following that small blip of an emergency surgery (feeling all better by the way thanks for asking), we chatted about the best diet/meal options for someone in my situation.  It’s not that I don’t like the typical bodybuilding diet but let’s be honest… how many times a day does one want to eat chicken, broccoli and sweet potatoes.  You find me one bodybuilder in this world who LOVES their diet and I will show you a big ole bullshitter.  My love of good tasting food goes much deeper than that.  Although I have my cravings and my urges to dive face first into a pot of cheesy mashed potatoes under control (4 years sober from the mashed potato diving) I still just love food and being creative with food.  My surgeon mentioned that the Paleo lifestyle was what people with DS surgery should be following.  It obviously peaked my interest because I had never really given that a try before.

I knew starting on this journey that it would be a trial and error type of run.  For those who read all of the blogs I post, your heads might be spinning with all of the different diets/meal plans I have tried and can imagine my frustration with not really finding one that fits with me.  I decided to read a little more on this whole Paleo thing.  I always thought that it was just not eating crap and sticking with what the earth gave us…great… a fancy name for a vegetarian vegan.  After further understanding of this lifestyle I started to like where this was going.  I cut out all of the condiments that worked their way into my daily diet; dressings, hot sauces, ketchup, bbq sauce things that I tried to find that were lower in calorie so that they would work with the bodybuilding diet but in all honest I had no clue that were in them.  I also had to finally (for realsies this time) cut out artificial sweetners and Crystal Light type drinks.  I stopped putting creamer in my coffee and just stuck to Green Tea and started adding fruits and varieties of veggies back into my diet instead of just broccoli or asparagus.  I’m eating things like almonds, walnuts and creating things like almond butter and cinnamon walnut butter.  I’m making big, colorful salads and bakes breads with almond flour and coconut flour.  I actually can eat BACON!  (in moderation of course!)  I don’t weigh ANYTHING that I eat.  I eat when I am hungry and I don’t when I’m not.  The surgery is a HUGE tool in that respect because I have the portion controller built in.

I was starting to get frustrated with myself on the bodybuilding diets I was following because I just cannot force myself to sit and eat FULL meals 4-5 times a day.  The whole reason I had the surgery was because that was the problem originally.  With this plan, I have all of my food available and prepared and I eat it when I’m hungry.  If I don’t get it all in then I just keep it stored for tomorrow.

Don’t think I’m going to go jumping ship from the S.S. Bodybuilding anytime soon and head over to the CrossFit Camp.  I truly am in love with bodybuilding and am having such a blast building the muscles I always knew where under there somewhere.  The strength I am finding in myself to keep pushing, keep driving for that next weight keeps surprising me.  The old Lyss would have gone to the gym, did a few leg presses and gone out for a 12″ sub because I deserved it after such a hard workout.

Though it has only been two weeks since this change and I am still trying to tweak things and see what works and what doesn’t, I’m liking this one the most out of any of the meal plans I have tired.  I still drink my protein shakes and I still use a pre-workout before going to the gym so I guess I’m eating 99.99% Paleo.  I haven’t decided yet if I want to do a splurge meal but I might let myself have a small treat once a week to see how my body handles it okay.  Last week I had frozen yogurt with Marc and I didn’t have any issues so that might be my go-to treat for a few weeks.  In all honesty, I haven’t had any cravings for anything.  I feel like I get everything I need on this plan and have not had urges for anything that I can’t create with food.

It has been really fun to explore how food is really meant to taste as well.  I was always so quick to drown my food with salt, dressings, sauces and extras before even tasting it.  I have to say…blackberries are probably one of the most AMAZING fruits in the world!  Avocados have such an incredible smooth, clean and fresh taste.  Almonds are the perfect snack to crunch with a buttery texture once you chew for a little it.  NOW I understand why people love food so much.  The stuff I was shoving in my mouth before wasn’t food…that was modified food alternative that I let myself believe was real food.

I have not stepped on the scale in two weeks.  I have no idea where my weight is or really where my progress is in terms of inches.  For the first time in a very long time my body just feels good.  My energy is through the roof, I don’t need caffeine or caffeine supps to get me through the day.  I have not had any tushy pain or issues which is the best part of this whole thing if you ask me!  I feel like I am getting good quality workouts starting from my morning cardio, through my lifts and my post lift cardio.

Below are a few progress pictures.  I am going to stay off the scale until after plastic surgery.  I want to ride out this diet for a few more weeks to see how I feel going into plastic surgery and make any adjustments after that.

(P.S. the title has no significant meaning.  John yelled it from the kitchen as I was sitting here trying to come up with a title.)

6.5.14 Progress

6.5.14 Progress



6.5.14 Progress #2

6.5.14 Progress #2


It’s OVER!

I’ve been wanting to write this to you for years but have never had the strength to stay away from you long enough.  I always gravitate back to you.  Maybe I got used to the torture.  Maybe I relied on the disappointment you always managed to cause.

You are never there to support me.  When we are together I feel insecure, vulnerable and confused.

I’ve depended on you for so long to make me feel beautiful and successful and good about myself.  I turn to you to confirm just how proud of myself I should be and if those feelings were justified.

I let you destroy all of the positive energy I work so hard to bring into my own life and you do so in just a moment.  Just seeing you drains every good thought out of my mind and is replaced with fear.

To you I’m just another number.  You don’t care who I am, what I stand for or what my hopes and dreams are.  More importantly, you don’t care how many of those hopes and dreams have been crushed by you.

I refuse to continue to let myself be a slave to you.  I refuse to let you dictate how I should feel about myself and my life.

From now on I decide how beautiful I am.  I determine my worth and my own standards.  I gauge my own pride and will never again fall victim to your undermining ways.

You can make me question myself, make me feel inadequate as a person and a woman and lead me into a deep sadness but you can never take away my strength to get back up and keep moving forward.  You can never diminish the courage I have to continue fighting for myself and my dreams and you can never destroy the path I have already walked.  Try as you might, you will never beat me down.


It’s not you… it’s me.  Actually, it is you.

It’s over scale.  I’m breaking up with you.