Nobody ever said that this was going to be easy. When I say “this” I mean changing my life and getting healthy. The whole process is a challenge and that is exactly why everyone doesn’t do it… yes I mean they DON’T do it because everyone CAN it is just a matter of how deep your drive is.
My fat lifestyle was something that brought comfort to me. NOTHING made me feel better inside than a Venti Hot Chocolate with extra whipped cream and a cinnamon chip scone from the green lady. I never realized how deep the food addiction can live even when you have overcome so much of it. There are days where I can still crave the foods that I used to find so much comfort in… cookies, french fries, pasta, fried chicken…the things that got me into my situation in the first place.
I realize now that THIS is where my strength comes in. It has nothing to do with lifting weights…but has to do with the inner strength that comes from ignoring the stupid little voice in the back of my head that goes, “It’s okay…just get a cheeseburger…you’ll work it off later.” Oooooh no you don’t! I’ve come too far now to lose everything I have worked my ass off for (LITERALLY!)
I am not perfect. I don’t have a perfect system down yet. I am constantly trying to change things that don’t seem to be working and perfect things that do work in order to find a great balance that works best for me and my body. There are some weeks where I don’t lose any weight at all… in fact I might gain some weight. There are weeks where I feel amazing, I’m working hard and the scale goes UP! I don’t panic, I don’t get discouraged…this is a process that lasts a LIFETIME and I have PLANNED to screw up a few times in that time frame. I go back to what I did that week…think about what might have worked and what didn’t and try again the next week but I will ALWAYS keep going. I will NEVER stop.
Being healthy has replaced the obesity addiction. I get comfort from knowing that my blood tests are perfect, my knees and ankles don’t hurt and I feed my body the clean, fresh food that it has been dying for for so many years.
There will always be bumps in the road. Things will go wrong and catch me off guard but there is nothing out there that will ever make me quit.
**TIME FOR PURE CARDIO INSANITY STYLE! BRING ON THE SWEAT FACTORY!**